dear Beddy, I miss you a lot!!!

right about now, i kinda miss my bed...maybe its because im really exhausted that i have 4 exams back to back...and that is not the best part..the best part is, all of them are during the weekends...it start of with intermediate microeconomics II and followed by public finance and after that its my econometrics test 2 lastly is my usul fiqh II...worst part of all.....i really3 miss my bed!!!!!

A Theory Of Mine About JEALOUSY

What is it about jealousy that gets us all riled up??? at some level, we are annoyed at ourself when we realised that we are feeling jealous...no matter what the cause is. Someone once told me that when we are jealous at someone, it basically means that we want to be that person...in plain english, we are just angry at ourselves...weird??? but i have came to a realisation that every little bit of the statement is in fact, true...personally, i think that we can get jealous of someone else's achievement of happy moments, theres a catch...make sure that the feelings dont stay there for long...but, if you just stay put and to actually do nothing about it...i find that there is no need to feel jealous of someone else...the truth is, that person is in that place because of 2 reasons..first in by chance and the second is thru his/her own effort...so, if by chance...i'd say that this person cannot indulge his/herself in the comfort of luxury because i belief in the greatness of God...and this person should know that life doesn't always revolve around them and at some point, everyone has to experience the "road down the hill"...this person might as well study the road there...if you know what i mean...and for the second reason, which is thru effort...i feel that, we have no right to feel jealous for their achievements...they simply earned it!!! what makes you think that you have every right in the world to be in their place when you don't even shed a single drop of sweat and even worst you dont even put in an ounce of effort??? think about it the next time you find yourself wanting to kill someone because she has something that you don't... so, i would say that its ok to feel jealous of someone but keep in mind that if you hold on to the feelings for soooooo long, it's going to kill you inside and beyond some level, its going to spread externally....its simply a malignant infection people...cheers~

PRE-REG STINX!!!~

i guess this is god's way of telling me this is what you get for cursing people in your blog!! i did not get thru to 3 subjects for this coming short semester and the next full semester!!!!! and i could curse UIA for putting up a lousy online registration system and we (the students) are the ones who have to put up with the freaking lousy online registration system...if you dont have the intelligence to adapt to the system...i heres an advice for you guys..act like you ar in need of intelligence!!! i reaaaallllly think you guys should revise your lousy online system and your finance division as well!!!!~

PLANNING OUR FUTURE along with some noisy scumbags ....ngahahahaha~

well, im at this really noisy cc and theres bunch of noisy chinese boys who just cant stop shouting at each other just because they are highly addicted to this online game...God knows what is the name of the game...yea, just because this place is full of people who you might think cannot open their eyes any bigger...well people, lemme introduce to you...they are the most selfish, annoying, loud and sloppy looking chinese boys who just cant stay at home and get their butt cleaned for once....so anyway, back to the point...im here with my best pals (gurl and nazzy) because we are trying to fight for our future...at 5 pm sharp peeps!!!! well, as for now, i have just get my future planned out...by future, i mean next semester...i dont plan for the long term future...i just like life to surprise me...you can tell that im not the type of person who get things organized...thats me!! this is the part where i dont wish life to surprise me...i'd like to turn out the exact way that i have planned it should be...i think, that i may have to extend my semester here...for a good reason...as we know, the economic is not doing very well now, so, if i got out of my U now, i may have to be an unemployed fresh graduate...by the time im employed, im no longer a fresh graduate...im a rotten graduate...and also, i kinda suffer from a short term memory loss...i dont think i will still remember what have been taught by my lecturers...and the result of that, i might not perform excellently at what im doing...booooohooo~
here's the deal, we (me, gurl and nazzy) will keep our fingers crossed for a while so that we can get thru all the sections of the subjects that we have planned out...because i hate, re-planning....and before i start registering, how i hope that someone will come and shove something down the noisy faggs ass!!!!

FABULOSITY AT ITS BEST!!!~

I really love this one particular style icon…she is superbly fabulous and I like the way she presents herself…well, some of you may think that she is a little too diva for me to adore her, but I don’t really care that much for your opinions here…this is my blog, and I can write whatever the hell I want here and I can like whoever the hell person I feel like adoring…so, as I was saying, the person im referring to is KIMORA LEE SIMMONS…guessed you guys have expected that as I had the word fabulous bold earlier on…so anyways, I really like the way she brings out the best in other people…mostly her workers as I haven’t had the chance to met her in person and im not gonna hold my breath…(as if she had the time to come down all the to Malaysia…and besides, can she stand the heat here???)…so, I can only observe her from he weekly show…the way I see it, she pushes her worker beyond their limitations…on the surface, it might seem a little cruel but if you go a little deeper, you will come to realize that she is actually doing them a huge favor…like in your office or college, your lecturers give you loads of assignments and all you can do is to wonder when and how can I get this done??? That’s not the worst part, the worst part is when they announce the due date…you can hear the music from the “SCREAM” movie…and a scream at the end of the music and that’s when you snap back at reality!!! So, like it or not, you have to get the job done…the difference is, in college, you have to please your lecturers and here, you have to please kimora…*god knows how hard it is to actually please her*…on the due date, you have on your hands the assignments that you are suppose to hand in to you lecturers or kimora…my point here is, the moment a task is being handed out to you…all you did was to second guess yourself and then there you are, all assignments done and feeling fabulous!!!!! These people did a huge favor to you when you are in doubt of yourself….and other than that, she is just soooooo confident with herself…she wears fine jewelleries that actually cost her millions of dollars and she is never apologetic for it…you know why??? Because she earned it with all her hardwork, why do you have to go and bitch about the fact that she weras a million dollar earings??? Get over yourself!!!…she is a living testament of a female fabulous multitasker…and she always gets her job done in 5 inch heels…and this is why I love her….
"I am probably the queen of opulence. I love my jewelry. I love my diamonds. I love my shoes. I have diamond shoes. Some people might prefer more demure look. I like it all out screaming. I don't care."
and I manage to dig a little of her wits and wisdoms…here it is;
· -"If you're shy, get the hell over it: You're slamming the door in your own face."
· -"Be a gold-medal multitasker. You should be able to discuss the new Ludacris video while correcting the merchandising spreadsheets, picking the right shade of snakeskin for next season's mini-purses and catching the dog at the same time!"
· -"In almost any situation, it is far more devastating to keep your icy cool while the other person gets herself in a flush-cheeked, teary-eyed hot mess yelling in your face."
· -"Be stingy with your money! Don't splurge at the mall -- and definitely don't give it to your boyfriend!

THE PRICE OF MY OWN PRIDE

For the past 2 weeks i have been angry with my dad because of his slight mistake that he himself don't even know. I sent a message to him and this is how the text sounded like, "U have no idea how furiously dissapointed i am when u told antimah that i have to repeat 1 paper this semester...its humiliating enough for me to walk around my department and smile but to have you telling her that i have to do it all over again?? do you think i enjoy it? no, but i do it because i messed up and im fixing it...well, guess thats not good enough for you that you had to tell other people about it...i didnt even tell mama that i had to repeat the subject because im embarassed..imagine how'd she feel when someone else and that person is not me?? I realised that you are not happy either bout me repeating the subject, but this is not how i'd expect you to react to it...tell me if it makes you feel unhappy, dont tell her...im the one who have to go thru it, not her, not you...me!!!" well people, i can tell that u must be judging me right about now, most of you will have the impression that im a rude daughter to have sent that kind of message to my own father...and im not saying that you are wrong...i am rude!! and not just that, i punished my dad by not talking to him for 2 weeks i guess...during my angry days, i alienate my dad in his own home...when he sits in the living room, i ran upstairs and slammed the door...when he sits at the dining table, i ran for the tv...and things like that...in simple palin words, i cannot be in the same room with my dad...almost 2 weeks have passed by and i have decided to end my agony by volunteering to say the word "SORRY" myself without having anyone pestering me to do so...i find it weird in a way because, normally when i find myself having a fight with someone, i always told myself that i will never say sorry no matter what happens...i will never downgrade myself by saying sorry..yes, that is how humiliated i feel when i have to surrender to the fight...all my life, you can count with the fingers that you are born with how many times i have said the word "sorry" with my own free will...and when i have expressed my apology to my dad, he gave me a long talk about my pride...he said that if i kept having this attitude, i will never go far in any relationship, even with my own spouse..and of course it got me thinking...it wont kill to hurt my pride, it wont kill to say sorry first...what was i trying to prove to my own father when i have decided to alienate him in his own home??? what did i get in return after i have won the battle?? i get nothing actually...maybe i got my father's dissapointment but it doesnt prove anything to anyone...i have never realised that this is the price i have to pay to keep my my pride up sky high...and i have sworn to myself that i will never have a partner until i do something with my ego...